Let the Games Begin

I am now onto week 2 of my running journey and I will say it is going....well, it is going.
Last week was my week of running 2 min/walking 2 min and this went rather smoothly. I didn't find it easy keeping this up for 30-40 minutes, but it was definitely do-able.
This week the time increased to running 3 min/walking 3 min and while it seems this shouldn't be much more of a challenge than last week..it sure was.
Tonight was my first night attempting this new interval challenge and I found myself fine for about the first 20-25 minutes..and then I just died (figuratively...well, almost literally as well)! My legs felt like jello and no matter how hard I tried, I just could not make my last 3&3 interval. ERRG!

Remembering back to the wonderful days of running with a partner/friend, I remembered how she would tell me to put mind over matter and to just convince myself mentally that I could do keep going. HA.
While this mind over matter stuff might work for her, it sure doesn't and didn't work for me!
No matter how hard or how many times this mind of mine worked to tell my little legs just to keep running..my body just laughed and refused!

Let me just run through (pun intended) a few "mind games" I played with myself during this joyous (<--- mind game) run.

a) trying to consume my thoughts with the beautiful scenery around me rather than the immense struggle my body was attempting to overcome

b) telling myself "we just have to make it to that tree" and then once that tree was reached "we just have to make it to that tree" etc, etc...
*this particular mind game was one of my running partner's favorites! she was convinced that it worked. well, my mind, rather my body, is much to smart for this silly little trick (mind you, i just graduated from nursing school. ha.). and once i had set my first landmark, my legs would simply not be fooled in making it to the next.*

c) observing the other runner's around me--particularly the silly looking ones (you know, the boys wearing short girl shorts or the girls walking their dogs, or rather their dogs walking them)--any how, and trying to convince myself that "if they can do it, I can do it"

d) turning my ipod up as loud as it goes, so as to drown out my horrible thoughts and body aches

e) timing my intervals so that I am always running down hill and walking up hill (personal favorite)

and the list continues...

While I continue on my running journey, I am wondering if any of my readers have words of wisdom and inspiration for the 8 weeks ahead.
Regardless, I will continue to fool myself into believing that I actually enjoy this-- in hopes that someday I WILL!

For now I will leave you with a visual image of what you would see if we happened to cross paths during one of my FANTASTIC runs.

Now I'm no Simpson's fan..but his posture and facial expression say it all!

Reality

If you can remember a few posts back, I blogged about my incredible excitement regarding passing NCLEX, getting a nursing job, and receiving my provisional nursing license.

Well today reality set it.

Tomorrow is my first day on the floor with REAL patients as a REAL nurse and well...lets just say that excitement is not my most predominant feeling. But rather--NERVOUSNESS, FEAR, ANXIETY, and PANIC seem to be more fitting for this particular circumstance!
I know I am well prepared and maybe even "qualified" for this challenge, but some part of me just can't get over the fact that I am no longer a student nurse protected and overseen by my professor. The idea of being independent is something that I have longed for since day one of nursing school, and now that it is here it seems as though it has come all too soon.

While I could ramble all day long regarding my nervousness for tomorrow, I instead am going to re-read yesterdays blog and trust in the truth that God has me in the palm of His hand! Besides, if He was able to get me through nursing school, I am quite convinced there is nothing He cannot do!

As my morning devotionals reminded me "we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him and have been called according to his purpose...If God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:29, 31

To Trust in The Truth

Do I/you trust in "The Truth?" I mean, honestly and genuinely TRUST in "The Truth."

Seems almost like a question not worth asking....I mean, of course I/we/you would trust in "The Truth." For doesn't the nature of the truth rest upon it being true? And if something is true, wouldn't it be foolish not to trust it?

For example:
The definition of TRUE/TRUTH is: conforming to reality or fact, reflecting the actual or genuine character of something, not deceitful.
And the definition of TRUST is: reliance on the surety of a person/thing, confidence in certainty.
So if trusting means relying on a "sure thing" and the truth is a reflection of a "sure thing" wouldn't it mean that the safest thing to trust would be the truth?

As a Christian, I sincerely believe in the Bible as absolute truth. And as illustrated above, it would only make sense for me to then put all of my trust in such an absolute truth....so why then is it so hard for my scientific and factual brain to succeed or conform to this most logical act?

Let me back up.
These past few days have been the first of many days in the "real world." The past few days have introduced me to my future adult life/vocation...the life of a nurse. Since Monday of this week, I have been treading my way through University, Hospital, and Nursing orientation. Upon entering into this week-long information overload, I found myself both eagerly excited and incredibly nervous---excited to find out what my future UK Health Care life would look like but also nervous of learning the policies, procedures, and necessary steps for successfully beginning this new vocation.
While orientation has truly been great, and I much look forward to the coming days/months/years(?) of being employed at UK Hospital...I will also admit that tears have already been shed over the shear amount of information being given to me and the newness of everything surrounding me.

Now I know you are wondering what my connection is between the philosophical ramblings in the first few paragraphs of this blog and the life update just mentioned,

So here it is...The philosophical ramblings of trusting The Truth have everything and anything to do with my recent excitement and anxiety regarding my new vocation.

You see, my devotional life these past few days has centered around the promises of the Lord for his people...
promises of prosperity and hope, of strength and faithfulness, of restoration and renewal.And it seems that instead of trusting or relying on these promises, I have instead chosen to edit them to my choosing or liking. It seems that while reading these promises, I have inserted the underlying thought that life would be easy, or at least uncomplicated.

Rather than trusting that
in the midst of the unknown, the Lord promises a future of prosperity and hope;
in the midst of weakness and uncertainty, the Lord promises strength and faithfulness;
in the midst of emotional break-downs and feelings of giving up, the Lord promises restoration and renewal

I have instead skimmed these promises in the most shallow sense, believing that the Lord promises a prosperous and hopeful life, strength and faithfulness, and restoration without us ever having to go through the unknown, without us ever having to feel weak, and without us ever feeling like giving up.

But if I am to trust in The Truth, I must trust in the ENTIRE Truth...which means that I can no longer insert my own desires into the facts of Scripture. When it says you will be persecuted because of me, you will endure trials, and you must take up your cross and follow me both in my death and resurrection...it means it! ah.
But as Paul reminds us in Romans: "We know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us."

I guess what I am trying to say is but a simple reminder to myself of what it means to Trust the Truth. It means that I place MY trust in a Heavenly Father who never promised that life would be easy, uncomplicated, or trouble-free but who did promise
to give strength to the weary, a hopeful future to those who are faithful, and a renewal to downcast spirits.

And I will conclude with one of my favorite verses, that I still never seem to trust enough, but will challenge myself to trust completely:
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still" Exodus 14:14

On Becoming a "Runner"

For the past few months I have been working to become a "runner." I use the quotations so as to imply runner/walker/runner or rather one who attempts to run more than walk when exercising. Seeing as how college and nursing school had succeeded at ruining any plans for daily scheduled exercise, I find myself starting back at square one.
The past 2-3 months back in Illinois I have been "running" with a friend who was actually training for a half-marathon.
So now, if you will, picture this...
I, Sara, a very novice and poor excuse for a runner trying my best to run beside Mallory, an expert runner training for a half-marathon. Perhaps a famous fable will best illustrate our running relationship.

The Tortoise (me) and The Hare (mallory)

However, unlike the famous ending to this familiar fable, I, the tortoise, NEVER defeat or pass up the Hare (nor does she stop for a quick nap). In fact, our daily/weekly running attempts were actually quite pathetic and humorous on my part...so much so that I begin to consider myself part of campus entertainment seeing as how we would often fashion our runs around inner campus. (whose idea was that anyway??)
Surprisingly enough, within the last few weeks of running with Mallory, I actually began to improve. I become much more comfortable running, began building endurance, and dare I say--even started enjoying it.

Insert now our move to Kentucky

If you know anything about Kentucky landscape versus Illinois landscape, you are most likely already consumed with laughter and giggles. Illinois=FLAT, Kentucky=HUGE and MOUNTAINOUS HILLS (or mountainous at least in my opinion while running up them).
A few weeks ago I decided to venture out on my first Kentucky run. I had been told of a nearby Arboretum that had a 2 mile trail winding through beautiful Kentucky landscaping...sounded good to me, or so I thought....After my first attempt at running through the rigorous Kentucky landscape, I can now honestly say that I don't think I have ever been so excited to see the end of anything in my life!! Unlike the trail runs I had been on in Illinois, flat land does NOT exist down here in Kentucky...it felt as if my entire run was either uphill or downhill which turned my eager attempt at running into a struggle to put one foot in front of the other.
However, I am bound and determined to become a "runner" by some standards and have found a beginner's running plan that I am going to follow for the next 10 weeks.
I will officially start Week 1 this Sunday and will continue on from there.
For accountability sake and any hopes that someone might venture on this journey with me, I am going to post the plan below. Be sure to keep reading as I will be sure to blog about my attempts, successes, and most importantly failures!

THE plan
5 minute warm up. Repeat each rotation for 30 minutes until able to run for 30 minutes straight.
Week ONE: two minutes running/four minutes walking
Week TWO: three minutes running/three minutes walking
Week THREE: four minutes running/two minutes walking
Week FOUR: five minutes running/three minutes walking
Week FIVE: seven minutes running/three minutes walking
Week SIX: eight minutes running/two minutes walking
Week SEVEN: nine minutes running/one minute walking
Week EIGHT: thirteen minutes running/two minutes walking
Week NINE: Fourteen minutes running/one minute walking
Week TEN: RUN THE WHOLE TIME!

Hello, my name is Sara and I will OFFICIALLY be your nurse today!

I PASSED, I PASSED, I PASSED!!!!! So excited and such a RELIEF!

The Pearson VUE Testing service has recorded your unofficial results as shown below. The Board of Nursing to which you applied for licensure will mail your official results to you within approximately four weeks of your exam date. Please note that a passing result alone does not authorize you to practice as a licensed nurse.

Exam Date:	Tue, 1 Jun 2010 at 8:00 AM
Candidate:	Sara Cook
NCLEX ID:	21685636
Registration #:	235251491
Exam:	NCLEX-RN: The National Council Licensure Examination for Registered Nurses
Grade:	Pass

Me with my provisional nursing license and offer letter from UK Hospital. I start my official nursing career Monday June 7th. Woohoo!!